what should i do?

lyle was confined in the hospital because of his t tonsillitis and ulcer. i cant bear seeing him suffering from those needles and medications. another confinement will lead him to an operation :'( i dont want to see that day. i want to spend my whole life with him despite of all those miseries and foolishness and troubles he gave to me. i still love him so much,i hope god would help him survive his illness :(